random thoughts

finally getting Belle de Jour 2008 planner!!! am getting one for my mom, for jing & me!

awaiting the arrival of my complete (well, almost) Ann Brashares' The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants....still need to hunt down the official scrapbook :-(

need to really have a work-out regimen...am so FAT!!! :-( A plateful of wedgie fries like the one they serve at Luke's...they sort of have that at carlos' pizza yum!!! plain or with melted cheese & bacon is sooooo goooood!!! ....I'm so FAT!!!!

July 10

Today is my bestfriend Juliet's 36th birthday. She is on her way with her 2nd child, my godson/daughter to be. I'm just contemplating on life...how life has been when we were kids living in BF...when our world revolved on seeing each other, getting to our meeting place (usually our houses) on our bikes...I still remember the feeling of riding in the wind...that feeling seems so real even until now...how I wish I could just get on my bike (the butterfly or the bmx or the shimano) once again & just let the wind freely blow away all my problems of the present.......

me

My passion lies not
...in getting a career-break, let alone pursuing one...
...It's not in how far I've traveled or can travel around the world, especially if it's a business trip and not with my loved ones...
...not in how many workshops or seminars I've attended and can attend and are indicated in my CV for all to see...
...not in how much my gross annual income is...

Cos where my passion lies is....
...in taking care of my child from birth to forever, making sure I am there for him all the way...
...cooking up a feast for Dj (my kid) and his friends on a stormy night, while the kids wait for the rain to stop so they can be on their way home...
...choosing what color canary to buy with my 5 year old niece (prior to this, cleaning out the birdcage and refilling the containers with bird seed and water)...
...reading & re-reading HP books with Dj beside me...filling me in on stuff I've already forgotten about....like who were the Peverells, etc.
...having Dj comfort me as I bawled over poor Dobby's death (yes! I did cry over Dobby!)...
...simply watching people go about with their lives as I walk through parks near Manila City Hall....
....walking along the streets in Old Manila.....

my fondest childhood memories

batang bata ka lang at akala mo na

na alam mo na ang lahat ng kailangan mong malaman.......

i'm talking about the original version sang by APO...

hearing this song reminds me of my fondest childhood memories...memories of Alabang & BF...of 191 Apitong St.....Phnom Penh Cor. New Delhi Sts.

....camping out with Kuya Mike, Wowie, Haydee, Melle & Yek in the garden...playing make-believe Cinderella, Snow White & Sleeping Beauty and scaring the seahorse and squid in the bahay kubo inspired aquarium in the lanai...going to ATC with Kuya Mike to deliver burger patties at the Magnolia ice cream parlor (is that still around?...dunno eh, haven't been to ATC for so many years now)...tagging along with Kuya Mike while he withdraws money from the ATM (then I thought ATMS dispensed money endlessly!) Ü I thought Kuya Mike was really rich! he he....jogging in the streets in the morning with Pagsi and Shiela...proud parents of Boomer "Ate Inggay"s doggie!"......driving through Concha Cruz at full speed for fear of running into the "Legendary White Lady".........Icee @ Tropical Hut...the weighing scale at Tropical Hut!!! Ü FUNLAND!!!! Orange Tree where I got my favorite purple and pink Esprit shirts.....ELF!!! my all time favorite novelty shop! The "jelly thing" & cute stationeries at O'Smile!......Sunday mornings...waking up to the noise of Hitler and Evita...bike rides to as far as Hamburg, Houston...and Governor Santos......Christmas then was the best...maybe it was because I was still a kid or maybe it's simply because BF is where really my heart is.... =( We had our all white parol on our front door....we'd buy watusi in Kuba's store...we'd watch Koyang Pete and Steven light and pop those "5 star" and "bawang" firecrackers....

How I also loved going to Tabek and Tessa's place where we'd play boardgames & ride around in our bikes endlessly.....tagging my kid bro and sis Wowie and Haydee to Tabek's....playing "kickball" & her really great "detailed" dollhouse! Sometimes we'd just lie around & make kwento till we ran out of stories..then Tabek's Inay would call us for lunch, "a real treat" since she cooked the best dinuguan ever!!! How it went well with the california rice! yUM!!!

Going home, sometimes Kuya Jimmy would give me a backride on the famous "yellow hopper"...nahulog pa kami dun 1 time....I got sandwiched by the two and Tabek was like, "Kuya Jimmy lagot ka may sugat si Helen!" ha ha ha i dreaded going home that day!.........ang dami pang memories of my childhood.....of my home...........someday, I'm gonna go back.........until then i'll have these memories to hold on to..... Ü

the math on love

My life story should've been as uncomplicated as 1+1=2....but somewhere along the way, i stupidly managed to add a couple of ÷s, Xs and even several √s thus complicating my otherwise basic life equation.

People say life is what we make of it and that we always have a choice...but, what if the choices given to you do not even have anything you like? Do you just settle for the lesser evil for the sake of choosing? I think that more or less, it's what happened to me...Add to that, the sad reality that I am such a hopeless believer of true love and fairy tale endings...

Rant!!!

This is way low tech if you ask anyone...

• the log books for everything that comes in & goes out to (they say) track the internal & external memos....so what's the use of having an e mail account? Isn't the point of having an e mail to transmit such in a matter of minutes? or even seconds? AND to be rid of hardcopies that take up so much space & contribute to dust (causing allergies, etc.)
  Approvals would be done in a click of a key! They'd finally be paper-free, hence, less roach infested...atleast somehow (?) ....i hope
  
• another thing is the phones!!! or the friggin' lack of them! Imagine having to live & work with just ONE phone in one whole division?!!!! When I got so used to having my own digital phone with the cool LCD and speaker, follow me plus telecon functions!!!! Aarrgh!!! How I miss that!
• OMIGOD the scanners!!!! What do I do then if they ask me to scan a 50-page document? Scan them one by one?!? They don't have the scanner that feeds load of docs automatically!!!! (groan)
• And they use telefax (double groan)!!! emphasis on the tele... here
• ENP's already rolling out to Windows Vista Enterprise while here....they've just started migrating to Windows xp.....so probably Vista's gonna be introduced around 3000 huh?

WELCOME TO THE JURASSIC ERA....

my frustration of the arts

really really want to do it but how to???? how to go about to actually doing it is the big Q!!!
and tapping into the creative side of me I know I once had is another...