oops i did it again

Stupid me struck again!  Why can't I just be content and not screw and mess things up?????  Things are going just fine....and I have to act all mushy and cheesy and shitty and now this is what I get!!!!!  If I manage to pull out of this mess, I will make sure to keep my big fat mouth shut!!!!! 

Tell us what fills your heart with gratitude

Dear papemelroti!

My heart is filled with gratitude when I see simple acts of kindness.
When a young man gives his seat in a bus to an elderly or a pregnant lady.
When I see someone share their food and clothes to the less fortunate.
The sight of a newborn baby cuddling up to her mother, feeling so secure in the arms of her parent.
And even just seeing a rainbow after the rain fills my heart with so much happiness.

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More than a year has passed

A lot has happened....
I have been liberated from "bondage" since July of last year.
Dj and I have been born again and it is the most wonderful feeling.  There is actually no word in any dictionary to describe it.  Wonderful, glorious, exalting are understatements...but our hearts are so full, that I guess, it's a word to somehow describe it.

The little girls are no longer little.....they have grown so fast!  So with Jonas and Milo!  Grandma turned 91 last October, and the whole family (well almost) celebrated with her!

Dj finally got his own TAMA drumkit!  Thanks to Tito Ben and an infusion of Dj's own savings :-)  His dream of becoming a really good drummer is now on its way! Mamimintakasi is their current name.



I joined the gym in October, but have not been there for a week now due to ill health.  But I am going back this week (hopefully!)  


Dj and I finally got our very own auto!!!!  Which we call "OTTO."  


Of course, we had our share of typhoon (Ondoy, Pepeng and Santi) stories....God bless everyone who helped and God bless the ones who suffered losses.


Good night for now...

MMM

i'm so missing my munchkin.....yesterday was just one of the best times :-) just spending half a day with him's more than i could ask for.....although of course i wish i could have more :-(

i just feel like i'm in high school except i'm not....i'm head over heels in love with him...i guess i thought i'd be able to make it through the whole break up, even though i did the breaking up....well maybe i could have survived it anyhow, but i'd still be feeling empty.....i wouldn't really be lonely or sad...but something will always be missing.....and so I had to go back.....actually I didn't have to....but I did...cos I wanted to.....I WANT TO.......he's still the love of my life, my prince charming come true to life....despite all the hurtful words, all the bad things that has happened.....one thing remains unchanged....that he is my munchkin and will forever be.....

random thoughts

sharing a story or a joke with my munchkin...the way his eyes sort of crinkle as he grins...taking in his scent (God I SOO love that smell!!!)

finally getting Belle de Jour 2008 planner!!! am getting one for my mom, for jing & me!

awaiting the arrival of my complete (well, almost) Ann Brashares' The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants....still need to hunt down the official scrapbook :-(

need to really have a work-out regimen...am so FAT!!! :-( A plateful of wedgie fries like the one they serve at Luke's...they sort of have that at carlos' pizza yum!!! plain or with melted cheese & bacon is sooooo goooood!!! ....I'm so FAT!!!!

July 10

Today is my bestfriend Juliet's 36th birthday. She is on her way with her 2nd child, my godson/daughter to be. I'm just contemplating on life...how life has been when we were kids living in BF...when our world revolved on seeing each other, getting to our meeting place (usually our houses) on our bikes...I still remember the feeling of riding in the wind...that feeling seems so real even until now...how I wish I could just get on my bike (the butterfly or the bmx or the shimano) once again & just let the wind freely blow away all my problems of the present.......

me

My passion lies not
...in getting a career-break, let alone pursuing one...
...It's not in how far I've traveled or can travel around the world, especially if it's a business trip and not with my loved ones...
...not in how many workshops or seminars I've attended and can attend and are indicated in my CV for all to see...
...not in how much my gross annual income is...

Cos where my passion lies is....
...in taking care of my child from birth to forever, making sure I am there for him all the way...
...cooking up a feast for Dj (my kid) and his friends on a stormy night, while the kids wait for the rain to stop so they can be on their way home...
...choosing what color canary to buy with my 5 year old niece (prior to this, cleaning out the birdcage and refilling the containers with bird seed and water)...
...reading & re-reading HP books with Dj beside me...filling me in on stuff I've already forgotten about....like who were the Peverells, etc.
...having Dj comfort me as I bawled over poor Dobby's death (yes! I did cry over Dobby!)...
...simply watching people go about with their lives as I walk through parks near Manila City Hall....
....walking along the streets in Old Manila.....
...hoping that someday my Munchkin and I will finally be able to just hang out in the walls of Intramuros...